Okay in the hunger or poverty meaning of the word starving I am not.. but I think all remotely creative people are starving in some way. We are either starving for attention, inspiration, approval or any number of ways to feed ourselves in order to produce. I am not new to the creative, growing up in music and drama, it has been something normal. One of my favorite presents was a ream of white paper and a set of markers. As I grew older I also enjoyed writing and sometimes poetry. The arts have always been a therapeutic outlet for me. What has been new as it being part of my job. Specifically writing and graphics. It has been a learning year and when I look back at things I produced a year ago it is sometimes hard to look at. I am so thankful I am around people who have let me learn as I go. I am also incredibly thankful for tutorials and training videos. Often I know what I want something to look like, I just don’t know how in the seemingly endless Adobe Creative Suite tools.
This past week has had me thinking who I live for. Am I starving for approval, attention, etc? I think you can walk into dangerous territory if you are. If I seek approval from people, I will always come up short. I can’t please everyone. But my simple desire to create something that would either reflect the glory of God or at some point get people to a realization of who He is and really to please God. I already have his approval- paid for long ago. If I am looking for attention I will be hurt when I don’t get recognition. I have the attention of God. If I look for influence and inspiration in places that are not of God, I will come up short. I will be starving if I am apart from God but full and fruitful with Him, seeking his approval, attention and inspiration.
So I’m okay. I would change about 12 things about my latest project. There are flaws and errors that probably only me and the 3 graphic designers at our church can see. But I’m learning and it was created to hopefully help people get what they need in a simpler, cleaner and less wasteful fashion. I can’t beat myself up just continue to move forward and pursue wholeheartedly Jesus.